Its kind of funny that I had this dream like every fat girl, lost some weight, and yet still have this dream. I mean I am always thinking, gosh imagine how fast I would be if I could just lose 10lbs. If anything I dream about it more than when I was heavy. I want to be like those people whose every muscle is efficiently carved, and do not have to log around anything of excess. It's stupid, I am smaller then most, I should just be happy with what I have got. Still when you run you kind of obsess about not being weighed down by anything.
You try and shed everything: weight, unhealthy relationships, bad habits, and dark thoughts. I like the profound freedom that I am beginning to find in my own body.