Feeling Run Down..

Lately I have been feeling really tired. Not physically, or emotionally. It is kind of like I have given  everything I have to give, and somehow more is required. It is really making  running a little hard. I took the last couple of days off, and still there is this tiredness on my chest.  I know this will pass, the truth is I need my runs, I need my sweat, and so it has to pass.

Apathy Makes People Fat

fI have no tolerance for apathy. Apathy makes you fat. It is the excuse that you give, that is just that, an excuse, and never a reason. Apathy is a conduit of laziness. It is that voice that says I can't do it, and sadly a lot of people listen to it. Apathy equals weakness. Life is too short to be apathetic, out of shape, and a pacifist in ones own life. 

Dirty little lies

I have a new philosophy on fitness and weight loss. It's really kind of simple: Try and sweat every day.  Thats it. Thats all you can really do. If you are not sweating..... you are not working hard enough. Period. 

One of the things that is kind of new in my running life is I am waking up at 4:30 to go running. Seriously, everybody should be really proud of me. I am not a morning person. I do not wake up happy. Anybody that does can just eat my......socks. And you know the only thing that really gets me out of bed, besides the fact that I have promised to help a friend lose some weight, is that I lie to myself. Really. I say Cassie, its ok, you're not going to run, you're just going to help Rahana, and maybe walk it out. The funny thing, is that I always believe it, I always fall for it, but somehow I always end up running. 

You know I have been running 5 miles a day pretty consistently, and lifting weights. Maybe its time to take it up a notch. Yeah, I think that it might be time. 5 miles is really beginning to feel the way 2 miles felt at the beginning of this journey a year and a half ago. Wow!!!!! 

In other news my mp3 play is kaput. May it rest in peace.

Ok, so.....

1. Sweat everyday

2. Wake up early

3. Increase mileage

4. Get new MP3 player

5. Continue to build relationships through running - running seems to attract some pretty solid people.

It has been a long time but you got to restart somewhere

 I have been bereft in the world without internet, and getting it set up can be a little bit of an ordeal. But I am back. Plugged into it all, if you will. I have missed the online world, but it was good to take a little bit of a break.

 I guess that as far as my personal life goes there is good news and bad news. The bad news is that after moving all the way back up to Portland, and signing a lease, my job fell through. The good news is that I went to the gym, I sweated in out, and in the morning said its on to the next thing. Look I am not going to lie, the whole experience was a little demoralizing, because this company knew how much I put on the line to work for them, and they essentially treated me like I was less than nothing. However, at the end of the day I have my integrity, and there is nothing I would do differently.

What really has helped me get through this experience has been the running and working out. In the past I would have probably felt pretty beat up by that experience, I would have probably had a little too much to drink, and I would have eaten a gallon of ice cream. This time around, I picked myself up and dusted myself off. It truly is amazing how wonderful being healthy is, and what a big impact that has on your emotional sobriety. So today, I am starting the blogging back up, and I will start updating my attack point.

Quick Update

So I haven't abandoned running or my blog. I just haven't had internet for the last month :( It will all be up and running by monday :) I hope you all are still with me.